yay, today was quite fun (i think.)

suddenly i don't really wna blog anymore,
and uhm
uhmm

nothing :D

anyway results on thursday, hurray!
i am super duper exxxxxtremely to the max excited.
because at least i will know whether im going to stay in ac or nOT!
if im going to stay then i'll continue w lessons (i guess)
if i'm not going to stay then i'll either withdraw/pon.
it's much much better since i'm rather sick of sch alrdy (HAHAHAHA)

you know most of the time when i blog i don't really blog about how i feel.
well at least now i dont. because i don't like people to see the unhappy side of me. so much to the fact that i keep secret journals and diarys (rmb diary-x, anyone?). but sometimes i just can't take it.
sometimes i try to catch up w friends because i honestly care and really want to maintain the friendship, but sometimes people just honestly don't give a shit. well.. if i try and you don't reciprocate, what is my point in the first place? a friendship is actually a freaking two-way thing. it does not work when i try to maintain it, but you don't respond. it ALSO doesn't work when only i am trying to maintain it. it is pretty ridiculous when i am the one who has to take up the initiative every single time. what does that merely show me? firstly, you don't really give a crap about how i am doing, and that secondly, you don't really give a shit about this friendship. you don't? then fine. a friendship also doesn't work when you expect something in return from me. it just doesn't work that way. at least, right now, i am not going to give a shit anymore. i am peeved. i am unhappy. i am GIVING UP.

i feel so much better now.

oh and i removed the tagboard. i dont need critiscms, thank you very much.